My Addiction

So I am an alcoholic, I'm not afraid to admit it... I have been struggling with this problem for a long time, r so it seems.... Being an alcoholic  is not easy... many people tell me i should just have never picked it up but its not all about your decision making skills, a lot of it you are born with. I knew from the time my pops gave me my first taste when i was 13 that i would never be able to stay away, and so it remains that i have a problem. I've done the usual, AA out treatment centers, in treatment centers, the works.... But sometimes i think, why try, as they say, once an alcoholic, always an alcoholic..... I dont know, maybe someday i will be able to overcome this disease, this sickness, someday.....